our dad
Wow!!This is it! I am actually posting a blog. I have always wanted to publish but i was afraid some may laugh at my grammar and other things that an insecure person think. But after calling my dad this morning, i’m inspired to write. This is my first blog so, this “should” be good.Haha!
Actually, i have already posted it this morning but because of my ignorance in blogging i have saved it somewhere and i spent so many hours just looking where it is. So, i have to write another one..huh!!!You just can’t imagine what i’ve been through writing it and now i have to start it all over. Going back with my dad, well you see i was not really comfortable with my dad when i was a kid ‘coz i grew up with my grandma not until she died. I can feel that my dad was really trying to reach out to me but i was so aloof I just became really close to him when i was in college. He’s a great dad, i can’t say otherwise. He is selfless when it comes to his family. Today is his birthday. Lets see, i have given him a shirt last year on his birthday, another shirt to his last,last birthday hmmm…i guess i have always given him a shirt.. Why didn’t i notice that? And now, i was not able to send one but even if i hadn’t, i know that my dad is happy and contented with my gift, this time. It is the best gift a child could ever give. I just said “happy birthday dad a, take care of yourself” and repeated it for so many times ‘coz i can’t think of other things to say.And before passing the phone to my sister with my surprise i just said “I Love You dad” . There was a long pause and he said it too. I know that he was surprised with what i’ve said because eversince, i have never said these words to him and that’s what hurts me most, although he knows how i love him but i have never actually said it. My tears kept on pouring after that call. I felt so bad because for all these years, why only now, at the same time thankful that atleast, i have said it rather than haven’t said it at all. Now i know that i have given him my greatest gift.
